One of the unique aspects of our clinic is that many of our staff members and group facilitators have been through the recovery process themselves. Their experience offers an invaluable insight for our current program clients. One of our facilitators, Brooke Mallon, sat down with me and offered her perspective on recovery.
According to Brooke, when she started on her journey to recovery she wasn’t completely ready. She thought she was – everyone that loved her encouraged her to get treatment – but inside she wasn’t ready to commit. This is true for many of our clients. They have reached the stage of contemplation; they are considering treatment, but still weighing the pros and cons. Their eating disorder or their addiction is still serving them in some way.
Brooke says some people that went through treatment with her were ready right away. They were able to move quickly through the process and seemed to make progress faster than others. For Brooke, recovery was a long process of many different treatment approaches and personal growth. She had to let go of her “know-it-all” attitude and realize that she really couldn’t know it all, or else she would not be asking for help. The people she knew in treatment that seemed to have it easy, or get a “fast fix” were probably the ones who had been contemplating this process for a long time, and had realized they didn’t know everything.
Brooke really knew that she was ready for her treatment and ready to take recovery seriously when she realized that her desire to get better was much stronger than her fear of failure. It wasn’t until she had been through different treatment programs that she realized this. She realized it when she thought she had a “functional” eating disorder – she was not displaying the ED behaviors as often, but they still happened from time to time, and she thought it was okay. She finally thought of the kind of mother that she wanted to be, and she knew she wanted a full recovery – she was ready to work hard.
Brooke’s story resonates with so many of our clients. And her story is not finished. Brooke still continues to increase her sense of self awareness, to heal herself with her practice of Nia and her group therapy that she leads at Inner Door Center®.
Stay tuned for another feature on Brooke, highlighting her experience as a yoga and Nia instructor at Inner Door Center® and the work she does with our clients!