Do you remember the feeling you had when you realized you were practicing recovery? The moment you decided to be in recovery and step away from your eating disorder? That decision may have changed your life instantaneously, or you may find yourself having to pick recovery over your eating disorder often, and then again and again. Recovery is ongoing. I was 3 weeks into treatment when I realized I was actually practicing recovery. At that moment, I remember feeling hopeful, feeling peaceful, and finally feeling FREE. Now I realize, I must chose recovery EVERY DAY to experience and embrace freedom from my eating disorder.
The best insight I’ve gained in recovery is to stay in recovery. Staying does not mean being still and stagnant, rather staying in recovery means being active. Be active in your recovery. Whether you’re 10 years deep into recovery or 10 steps back from where you want to be, you must remain active in the healing process! Even if it takes one, two or a hundred actions before you feel whole.
Recovery is not called just called “covery” because it is a “re-covering” process. “Re” meaning repeat. Steps must be repeated and skills may be re-learned over and over again before you can change your behaviors and transform your life.
Honoring your recovery begins with honesty. Be honest with yourself. Are you practicing recovery? Did you lose sight of recovery somewhere along the way? Do you need support right now?
There is no judgment in truth. Truth opens the doors to understanding, welcoming wisdom and compassion. Search your self to gain understanding on where you are today, if you’re in need of additional support for your recovery, welcome this experience and be compassionate with yourself. Most importantly, you must be true to be you.
Recovery will include challenging days, and often time relapses. But the hope is in knowing that healing is possible, and it is available. No one is too messed up to recovery. You are designed to be exactly who you need to be. There is no mistake in you. The biggest mistake you may make is not honoring your truth, and instead choosing to disregard your needs. To stay active in recovery means to do whatever it takes to continue walking in the healing journey. It is essential to continually check-in and acknowledge where you are at in your recovery.
If you’ve began to fall back into obsession with food, body image or weight, or if you are struggling with low self-esteem, eating disorder behaviors and destructive thoughts, please seek support. Stand up for your life, before your eating disorder stands in the way of it. If you’ve fallen a few steps behind recovery, speak up, seek help and step back on the path to freedom.
Inner Door Center® is here to help you rediscover your freedom in recovery. We would love to see you at our clinic this summer for ongoing support. Please call us at 248-336-2868 to schedule an appointment or learn more about Reconnect with Food® programs at www.innerdoorcenter.com.